She picked up the little bottle she’d bought at a shop that
sold herbs and tinctures. ‘Sun Dust, sprinkle anytime to add a little light in
your life.’ She wondered if it was just a sales gimmick. But the shop assistant
had assured her it was very real and would bring her what she needed. The
assistant had advised her to sprinkle just a few grains of it around her room
to brighten up her life, so she took out the cork stopper and sprinkled a
little over different areas of the house.
She waited. Nothing happened. Maybe it was a gimmick.
There was a bright flash at her window. Great, lightning, now
there was going to be a storm to make the day darker.
Felicity went to the window to watch it but didn’t see any
more and there was no rain. The clouds were grey but they didn’t look that heavy.
Maybe it was just a random strike.
She went to the kitchen to make some breakfast. She was
about to switch on the light when she saw the sun had broken through the clouds
here at the back of the house. Yet while she was clearing the dishes out of the
kitchen sink she glanced out and saw the clouds were still there, blanketing
the sky. It must have been just a brief glimpse.
She looked down into the sink again and saw sun glinting off
the chrome of the pans. She frowned. Where was it coming from?
She looked round the room and saw beams of light cutting
across the counter. She opened the back door and stepped outside but it was
still completely dull and chilly. She came back inside and saw the outline of
the window frame cast across the kitchen table as though it was full sunshine
outside.
Was it real? Could the Sun Dust be doing that? She couldn’t
think what else it could be.
Felicity went out of the kitchen and checked all the rooms
she’s sprinkled it in, even upstairs. Sure enough, they were all lit up with
invisible sunshine. It was glorious.
She smiled. And when she left her bedroom she felt her feet
lift more than usual. When she reached the stairs she floated down them rather
than stepped. What was going on?
She kept her hand on the banister, worried she might not be
able to stay grounded if she didn’t. But at the bottom she had to let go to get
into the lounge, and glided across the floor, plopping down onto the sofa, although
it didn’t feel like she was actually touching it.
She giggled at the idea, and then she couldn’t stop and lay
there laughing for at least half an hour, not really sure what she was laughing
at. Her sides ached. What was happening?
Had the bottle released some kind of laughing gas?
Felicity didn’t know, and no longer cared. She felt good.
She hadn’t felt this good in years, in fact not since she last fell in love.
That was it; it felt like falling in love. Only there was
just her. But that was okay. She liked that it was just her; she was enjoying
herself on her own for the first time ever. She realised she could be happy all
by herself. She didn’t need other people to have a good time. She could do
things by herself that would make her happy.
The revelation made her want to go for a walk, It didn’t
matter it was overcast; it didn’t stop nature being wonderful. She couldn’t
wait to get out in it and breathe in the air.
Felicity stepped out of the front door with a big smile on
her face. But by the time she reached the road her feet were no longer gliding,
the weight of her body had returned. And when she reached the woods she began
to wonder what she was doing there. She did, however, enjoy the trees and the
smell of the foliage on a dank, cold day.
When she reached the lake in the middle, she saw the ducks
and wished she’d brought something to feed them. And although when she returned
home less light and happy than she had been, she felt at peace. She knew now what
she needed to do.
The Sun Dust might have been the catalyst, but she
understood that her sadness was because she kept herself cooped up and didn’t
appreciate herself enough, or the outside world she lived in.
She smiled. She’d use the dust again, she knew that, but now
she had a deeper understanding that to change her life for the better it
started within.